March 15

FAITH MONTH: DAY 15: “Doubts are the ants in the pants of faith. They keep it awake and moving.” ― Frederick Buechner

This is amusing, isn’t it? I love analogies that speak of our resistance and our ego! While most of you have probably read or heard of monkey-mind and the busyness of our egoic thinking; Screaming Purple Monkeys is my creation.

And I love them, because they are my brain-children. Ants in the pants made me laugh today. I have had a couple of too-serious about my life kind of days. They are not good. I get all balled up in the workings of the world and my part in it and then I am whiney and stupid.

I HATE THAT!!! So, I needed to laugh at my attempts to play God and run the Universe. It is really comical. And my thinking that I know better how to do things…yeah, right! Today I want to laugh and play with my life. It is far too short to do anything else with.

But, all laughter aside, this is right on. When we doubt and do what we do, the discomfort is like angry fire ants in our pants. I lived in a home in the desert that had been invaded by them. They were horrible! Really bad invasion from South America brought them here, they are not indigenous to this country. I had to give up all of the plants I moved to the garden in that house, because that is how they get transported. They don’t invade homes, just the property.

And their bites are even worse than those big red ants. OUCH!

That kind of doubt is scary, as scary as me trying to run the show. Even though I believe I am really, really smart and should be in charge. Hahaha! Ants in my pants. Certainly does keep me awake and moving. I am awake, fighting with God all night. And arranging emotional furniture in my mind and making a case for or against whatever event or life situation I think I should have control over. It is awful! Ants in the pants…hahaha!

I am so happy I included this quote for this month. It certainly set me straight today. Now, I am laughing and laughing at myself and the Screaming Purple Monkeys and the ants in my pants. And that, my friends, is what God intended all along!

Published by: Kelly

I am a therapist and counselor with long-term recovery from addictions and personal trauma. My writing reflects these experiences and the road I have traveled in 12-Step recovery settings, along with the work I have done for over 30 years in the field. My love of dolphins includes the stories of them being healers in places all over the world. I long to offer every broken spirit and body the experience of a healing hug. May my words and stories inform, uplift and delight your spirit and soothe your weary heart.

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