March 6

FAITH MONTH: DAY 6: “Back of every creation, supporting it like an arch, is faith. Enthusiasm is nothing: It comes and goes. But if one believes, then miracles occur.” ― Henry Miller

I have a great deal of enthusiasm. I get excited and have high energy most of the time. So, I like to believe that is creative energy. But, the truth is, that this quote is right on the money. If I have a bouncy, Tigger energy, my creations are only as good as my faith.

Ooh! The sun just decided to come in through the window behind me as I wrote this. It is like a “Jesus cloud” moment, where I am illuminated in a golden glow. This doesn’t happen often when I am writing, because I am up earlier than usual to do some morning things when I am done. Very cool effect. It would work in a movie.

Anyway, my faith is what gives my energy feet. I would not follow up on my bouncy brain ideas if I did not believe there was a purpose or a reason for them. Because I have learned that some of my spontaneous ideas are not God-given, but come from the monkeys, I usually sit with them for a few minutes before I proceed.

Once in a while, I will just jump right into them, and find out I was going off half-cocked again! You KNOW I loved writing that sentence…tee hee! Anyway, this quote makes me happy, because I am a huge fan of Henry Miller. I find many things about his life and writing to have been ultimately romantic, and I am also a huge fan of romance.

We all know miracles, even when we decide to give them more logical names. I believe every baby is a miracle, even if some may consider them an accident or a burden at some point. All in how we see things, right. And please know that I am not particularly fond of children, and often say I am allergic. However, babies are miracles.

Even more miraculous are animals, especially baby animals. The way they melt my heart is not possible with anything else. My gardens are always miraculous. The way things come out of the ground with a seed and some water ALWAYS blows me away. Always. Every time. I never get over how amazing it is. And I have done it for a lifetime.

Faith is the thing that allows me to continue to plant seeds. And, I will say, there are times when I do not get the results I hope for. I may plant 25 bulbs and only see 15 results. Or, it sometimes takes 2-3 years for something to grow and I have to sit with an empty spot in my garden for that long, hoping and hoping it will happen. This is not my favorite thing, but you have to do this with asparagus and a few other things I really, really want to have growing in my garden. Another one is peonies, which are tough to get started in this climate, but I still try. Or lilies of the valley, and lilacs.

I get blocks of ice to try and trick them into believing they are NOT growing in Ventura. It seldom has the effect I want, but I do try. This is another example of where my enthusiasm is sometimes not as great as my faith. Ego tells me it will grow here if I want it to. Sigh!

And I always get the miracles. Always. I look around a meeting and see a room full of them. All of them! It doesn’t matter who is actually loaded, or who is lying, or who is going to the dealer or liquor store right after the meeting. A room full of people, gathered to even consider recovery, is an amazing and miraculous event to me. I love this life and continue to get enthusiastic about the damnedest things. So, go out and find the miracles around you and live in awe and wonder, especially if your faith is a bit shaky.

Published by: Kelly

I am a therapist and counselor with long-term recovery from addictions and personal trauma. My writing reflects these experiences and the road I have traveled in 12-Step recovery settings, along with the work I have done for over 30 years in the field. My love of dolphins includes the stories of them being healers in places all over the world. I long to offer every broken spirit and body the experience of a healing hug. May my words and stories inform, uplift and delight your spirit and soothe your weary heart.

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