March 2

FAITH MONTH: DAY 2: “Life without thankfulness is devoid of love and passion. Hope without thankfulness is lacking in fine perception. Faith without thankfulness lacks strength and fortitude. Every virtue divorced from thankfulness is maimed and limps along the spiritual road.” ― John Henry Jowett

I have watched this happen to so many people. When I tell new members that my entire recovery rests on the practice of daily meditation, journaling and writing a gratitude letter, they do not believe that these things can truly change an addict’s attitude and create happiness.

Ego is so large that we are susceptible to believing that we are not “good enough” or cannot get “good enough” to “deserve” this thing. Blah, blah, blah.

We whine and cry and kick and pout because we think that we are being left out of the treasures. And, some of us know the secret. The REAL secret. Being grateful shifts the brain. Long-term gratitude practice shifts the mindset from negative to grateful (Happy, Positive, Nice to be around.)

Misery loves to sit in meetings and whine and complain. Okay. Go for it! Life is going on and some of us are missing it, because it is not the color they ordered or the flavor they think it should be. Grace takes place in unearned gifts. Nothing in my life that is good is there because of me.

My only job around here is to clean up my stupid thinking, get out of the way, and let the Universe feed me, clothe me, and take care of my life. I handle details (Boy, do I!) And that is all.

It is my job to create space for the Universe to provide the life I dream of. I believe the dreams in my heart, (NOT in my head, that is Screaming Purple Monkey land), are there because I came here with them and they are part of my journey. When I try to make them happen, oh my! What a mess! So, I don’t figure shit out any more.

I just do what is in front of me and keep my lane clean. Then, I get to let go of all my ideas and plans for what SHOULD be going on and move into being grateful for what IS going on.

My faith is formed from the notion that no one can screw up my life as big as I can. I am always amazed when things come to me that I never even dreamed I could have. This has been a consistent, ongoing way of life for a while now. And I love it and want lots and lots more.

And every single moment is a thank you letter back to the Universe. I let go of what holds me back and get to fly freely into this amazing place called life. And I love it beyond my ability to express that love in words!

Published by: Kelly

I am a therapist and counselor with long-term recovery from addictions and personal trauma. My writing reflects these experiences and the road I have traveled in 12-Step recovery settings, along with the work I have done for over 30 years in the field. My love of dolphins includes the stories of them being healers in places all over the world. I long to offer every broken spirit and body the experience of a healing hug. May my words and stories inform, uplift and delight your spirit and soothe your weary heart.

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