HOPE MONTH: DAY 27: “There had to be dark and muddy waters so that the sun could have something to background its flashing glory.” ― Betty Smith
When life is going my way, I seldom need hope. When the skies are blue, and the sun is shining, I don’t need to believe in anything.
However, I find that maintaining my hope and gratitude is the best possible way for me to feel hopeful when everything seems to be falling apart. This has happened so many times, I cannot remember them all.
And, the best antidote for the fear of my particular addict mind is to remain faithful to prayer and meditation, along with my active practice of a gratitude list every day.
Life is going to continue to take place, whether I am in recovery or not. My life will continue to roll forward, no matter how I feel about it or how I respond. The thing that shifts it from horrible and terrifying to beautiful and celebratory is my attitude.
My attitude is 100% my responsibility. No matter what happens during the course of my day, I am always going to be accountable for what I do and how I do it. That means I have choices to make about how I behave toward my life. Despite what I think, life is going to give me “dark and muddy waters”, sometimes literally.
How I respond to that is a true testimony to the quality of the recovery I have in my life in that moment. Not what I have done for all the days before, but how I respond in that moment. I must say, that, cumulatively, my record is pretty good. Some of those moments though, YIKES!
So, I do not get to rest on my laurels or sew imaginary Brownie Patches on my uniform. (that made me smile!) I do get to continue to do those things that have served me well in the past, however. So, I better be ready for making my own sunshine on those days that seem less than sunny. It is all about my attitude.
Hope isn’t any good unless it is wearing track shoes and ready to hit the ground. It is always necessary for me to remain ready to take whatever action is indicated to turn my day into gold. So far, there are none I can think of that have not met this challenge.
I have had a lot of great days, even when they did not feel that way or I thought they were not going to turn out that way. Every single day is a gift and a miracle. I did not know that could happen. And yet, there it is! Irrefutable evidence that hope is greater than any of us can ever know!