October 5

DISCIPLINE MONTH: DAY 5: “One painful duty fulfilled makes the next plainer and easier.” ― Helen Keller

When I did my first inventory, I was imbued with the excitement and release of Step 5 right away! I loved the clean feeling I got in that few days following Step 5.

This feeling impelled me to go on to Steps 6 and 7, which I did, just like it says in the BB. Then I was a bit (!) reluctant with Step 8, but I kept going.

When I got to Step 9, I really balked, but I prayed. A few days later, I got a phone call at work that was so powerful, because it was one of my amends. I put the woman on hold and talked to her. She had not called me, she did not know I worked at this agency. But her son was in Detox that morning and she wanted to know how to deal with him.

It was such a powerful opportunity to see that the Universe was doing for me what I could not and did not want to do for myself. This was such a wonderful amends process that I was inspired to keep going. And I did.

That has informed me all the way through to this day. When I know what the right thing is, it gives me incentive to do it. I don’t often want to. But I do it anyway, and find myself in the middle of a miracle, every single time.

I am, right now, receiving incredible experiences, following a 14-month process that I did not want to engage in. It has been remarkable, and is not completely over yet. But, the day it started, I was crystal clear in knowing it was the thing I was supposed to be doing.

I am still amazed at how powerfully the Universe stepped in and provided all I needed for healing in this situation and how great the healing has been.

There are things we don’t know about ourselves, our lives, how they unfold and why. If I am willing to do what is placed in front of me to do, I am able to see the process that continues to bring into my life those things that are going to create my highest good and my healing.
Avoiding them is not going to do the trick. Trust me, I have tried it.  So, I have learned here to follow what I am led to do and have been amazed and overwhelmed by the gifts I receive…pure grace! This is my testimony to that process.

It is only in this way that I can continue to grow and develop and bring this to you. By showing up, again and again; no matter how I feel about it or what I think about it. Even when I know it is the right thing, it is never going to be the easy thing, or the thing I am most excited to do.

However, the discipline of “Just Do (ing) It” has taken me places I did not believe possible. That is what I came here for; and that is what I stay here for. How about you?

Published by: Kelly

I am a therapist and counselor with long-term recovery from addictions and personal trauma. My writing reflects these experiences and the road I have traveled in 12-Step recovery settings, along with the work I have done for over 30 years in the field. My love of dolphins includes the stories of them being healers in places all over the world. I long to offer every broken spirit and body the experience of a healing hug. May my words and stories inform, uplift and delight your spirit and soothe your weary heart.

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