COURAGE MONTH: DAY 26: “There will always be someone who can’t see your worth. Don’t let it be you” ― Mel Robbins
We underestimate ourselves; we addicts. We do this in many numbers of ways. What we don’t do is give ourselves the benefits of the recovery process in full measure far too often.
In Step 8, we are making this list and becoming willing to make amends for those things we did throughout our lives that were less than what we know to be right.
Our harmful behavior is much greater than many of us believe. We have had influence on many people in many ways. We focus primarily on our families and close relationships. There are so many others who are impacted beyond that. Employers, community members, victims of crimes we may have committed, and lots more.
When we begin to make this list, we may shorten the list because we fear reprisal and consequences from the acts we have committed. That is short-changing the beneficial outcomes we will receive in turn. Our worth is that there is a Power, a huge, loving, gracious Power that has brought us to this place. We may take credit for that, but the Power is the only way we get to this point. The only way. All we do is f—k up for years and come to that moment when the Grace is given.
In accepting this Grace, we are being asked to FULLY accept it and take it and run with it for as long and as hard as we can. The BB says that “half measures avail us nothing.” Not even half. Damn! That is true, in my experience. I have seen half measures, and seen how true that is. I want ALL the recovery…all of it. And it is not about whether or not I drink or use drugs…it IS about full recovery. Every benefit, every bit of spiritual experience I can get.
The grace is there. Why would I only take enough to get by? A miserable life without drugs or alcohol is not what that Power had in mind. I was gifted with ALL the Grace. I am taking it all today. I see that I am worthy, because it was given when I did not even know to ask.