PATIENCE MONTH: DAY 8: “You shall possess your soul in patience.”― Lailah Gifty Akita
I love the idea of possessing my soul. It is not the go-to setting for an egoic addict like myself. This requires the work of many, many steps and many, many years.
I believe meditation has given me the best road into patience. That and life itself. I am not the same woman who came into this recovery thing, and wisdom has come very slowly. An old friend of mine calls this thing “Slow-briety.” He is not wrong.
The more I am centered in my heart/soul/spirit the more I want of that. It is an addictive thing, for me. I love the way I feel most of the time and continue to work diligently at that level and for that purpose.
An addict of my variety does not want a little bit of anything good. So I allow that part of my personality to go after this thing with all the rigor I pursued men and drugs and all the other things I went after. It is a good process. I have not had to participate in those things like “countless vain attempts” or “half measures.” Never been my style anyway.
The more I practice these principles, the better each day is for me. Learning to accept life as it comes is the best thing I have ever done. The spiritual path truly is what I looked for in the bottle, the line, the syringe, all of that. So grateful I got it this way.