April 24

HONESTY MONTH: DAY 24: “Sometimes the one thing you need for growth is the one thing you are afraid to do.”― Shannon L. Alder

From what I have gathered over the years with these steps, it is 4, 5, 8, and 9 that really put addicts off. I know they did me…I remember my “Oh hell NO!” attitude.

And yet, they are the ones that bring true freedom from the boogey man who inhabits our nightmares. I did not get that at first, but having done a lot of this work, I see the shift in both myself and others when I quit carrying all that shit on my back.

I have lost SO many sponsees who just run away from this work. Okay by me, as the BB says, I just move on to the next one. They are not sufficiently beaten into submission by their addiction yet. I don’t take it personally. As I tell them, “I got mine.” And I do.

They are initially drawn to wanting what I have, but are not willing to do what I do. Not my problem, and I get to watch what happens. Getting loaded again is not always their path, but the road they walk is unappealing as hell to me…in fact it IS hell to me. No thanks!

Their message is important too. It is one of non-attraction. Like keep that mess away from me! I just get very grateful for what I have. And I have not seen one person anywhere who has ever been free without this work. Many think they are, but they truly are not aware of how unhappy their lives are. I get to see it and I am so happy with mine! As they used to say in the old days, “If you like what you’re getting, keep doing what you’re doing.” Amen.

Published by: Kelly

I am a therapist and counselor with long-term recovery from addictions and personal trauma. My writing reflects these experiences and the road I have traveled in 12-Step recovery settings, along with the work I have done for over 30 years in the field. My love of dolphins includes the stories of them being healers in places all over the world. I long to offer every broken spirit and body the experience of a healing hug. May my words and stories inform, uplift and delight your spirit and soothe your weary heart.

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