March 30

FAITH MONTH: DAY 30: “The search for God is a reversal of the normal, mundane worldly order. In search for God, you revert from what attracts you and swim toward that which is difficult. You abandon your comforting and familiar habits with the hope (the mere hope!) that something greater will be offered you in return for what you have given up.. if we truly knew all the answers in advance as to the meaning of life and the nature of God and the destiny of our souls, our belief would not be a leap of faith and it would not be a courageous act of humanity; it would just be.. a prudent insurance policy.”― Elizabeth Gilbert

This, for me, sums up beautifully what the journey is with Step 3 and Faith. I had to let go of what was comfortable, attractive to me (at that time), and easy. I had to jump off the cliff of trusting a group of drunks that I would be okay if I stopped running the show.

Huh! Well, imagine my surprise as I ponder this stuff all these years later. Hahahaha…like any of what I did before was a success, by any stretch of the imagination. It was SUCH a train wreck, but I can only see that by today’s comparison. We can only see in retrospect, of course, but have to make decisions in the moment.

So I chose, each moment, those things that were uncertain, unknown, and went against everything I knew, which was ONLY self-will, self-reliance, and Ego. Yeah, well, it did not seem that obvious to me at the time either. But it was. And miracles happened almost immediately, as they continue to happen. I have to relinquish my will in so many ways every day. It is funny to see how Universal Power continues to manifest today. I think I know, but am always so surprised by the creativity of my life. Good stuff.

Published by: Kelly

I am a therapist and counselor with long-term recovery from addictions and personal trauma. My writing reflects these experiences and the road I have traveled in 12-Step recovery settings, along with the work I have done for over 30 years in the field. My love of dolphins includes the stories of them being healers in places all over the world. I long to offer every broken spirit and body the experience of a healing hug. May my words and stories inform, uplift and delight your spirit and soothe your weary heart.

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