FAITH MONTH: DAY 30: “The search for God is a reversal of the normal, mundane worldly order. In search for God, you revert from what attracts you and swim toward that which is difficult. You abandon your comforting and familiar habits with the hope (the mere hope!) that something greater will be offered you in return for what you have given up.. if we truly knew all the answers in advance as to the meaning of life and the nature of God and the destiny of our souls, our belief would not be a leap of faith and it would not be a courageous act of humanity; it would just be.. a prudent insurance policy.”― Elizabeth Gilbert
This, for me, sums up beautifully what the journey is with Step 3 and Faith. I had to let go of what was comfortable, attractive to me (at that time), and easy. I had to jump off the cliff of trusting a group of drunks that I would be okay if I stopped running the show.
Huh! Well, imagine my surprise as I ponder this stuff all these years later. Hahahaha…like any of what I did before was a success, by any stretch of the imagination. It was SUCH a train wreck, but I can only see that by today’s comparison. We can only see in retrospect, of course, but have to make decisions in the moment.
So I chose, each moment, those things that were uncertain, unknown, and went against everything I knew, which was ONLY self-will, self-reliance, and Ego. Yeah, well, it did not seem that obvious to me at the time either. But it was. And miracles happened almost immediately, as they continue to happen. I have to relinquish my will in so many ways every day. It is funny to see how Universal Power continues to manifest today. I think I know, but am always so surprised by the creativity of my life. Good stuff.