FAITH MONTH: DAY 16: “I live in the faith that there is a Presence and Power greater than I am that nurtures and supports me in ways I could not even imagine. I know that this Presence is All knowing and All Power and is Always right where I am”― Ernest Holmes
I have read Mr. Holmes’ words for many years. In my early days around here, I consumed spiritual readings like I had consumed drugs and alcohol.
I was so in love with the idea of recovery and what was promised to me that I quested after it like Lady Lancelot or something. I have been on that mission for a long time now.
While I cannot say at what time or place it happened, I developed a deep and abiding faith that reflects exactly what this quote says.
Between now and then were many times of horrific fear. In the early days, it was often around self-destructive patterns I had lived with for years. Then it was around financial insecurity and relationships with loved ones.
As I became more faith-filled, I began to understand that although I had lost some significant people to death, I was going to be okay with that process, no matter what. I also lost jobs, had unstable financial situations that I was able to navigate, albeit with lots of discomfort on my part.
When I truly understood the vast nature of this Being or Presence, I understood that I cannot be left high and dry, because that Presence or Being is always there. Always.
That is where I sit today. Knowing that I have lived through and still been able to thrive no matter the outside circumstances of my life, I have little or no fear in what goes on around me. It is not about me, nor was it ever. Ego is less and Faith grows stronger and more substantial every day.