ACCEPTANCE MONTH: DAY 6: “We spend our lives complicating what we would do better to accept. Because in acceptance, we put our energies into transcendence.”― Amy Harmon
The battle most addicts have with Step 1 is amazing. I have heard some really great justifications for why a drug or booze is necessary. More necessary than other ways of learning to cope with life.
Ego loves to make mountains out of molehills. We dramatize life to feel more important, more victimized, more unworthy, more of whatever we are shooting for in that moment.
We exaggerate events and life, so we feel bigger than we are. Believing we are small and not such a big deal is a challenge for Ego.
Life is really simple. A basic perspective of how small and uneventful my life really is keeps me balanced and happy. There is nothing going on that is anywhere near how big I sometimes think it should be. I am just another Bozo on the bus as the saying goes. That is okay with me today.
But there are times when Ego jumps into the mix and I am trying to prove how big my life is in comparison with someone else. Ugh! I hear it when I am doing it sometimes and have to just walk away from the conversation. I have been triggered again by Ego! Dammit.
I am no big deal, my life is no big deal; never was, never will be. And I really love knowing that today.