December 24

LOVE MONTH: DAY 24: “One is loved because one is loved. No reason is needed for loving.”― Paulo Coelho

And it can never be “deserved” or “earned”. Love, by its very definition, is unconditional. There is no way to earn the love we receive from Universal Power.

On my very, very worst day, after the worst possible behavior, attitudes, and living, I received enough love for me to get into recovery. Not from people, but from intervention that could not have been more spontaneous and unasked for. I did not know I was an addict, did not know that people stopped using drugs and alcohol and their lives got better, did not even conceive of such a thing.

I believed that I was a piece of shit and all I wanted to do THAT day was die. My best idea was a form of killing myself very selfishly, as is all suicide. But I only wanted OUT of this thing called life. It was so painful; and I was so very full of rage and shame.

So what happened? I got to this amazing place of recovery, totally without knowing what was going to happen to me and for me that day. And so it was, and so it has been. I have had to step out on the ledge and off the ledge of life so many times since that day, just trusting that there was something at the bottom of the ledge for me to learn and know and experience.

Without earning it, without deserving it. And I call myself “God’s favorite kid” because I am! We all are! But most of us settle only for what we know. Way too little. And we do not know how to step out off the cliff one more time. Trusting that we are worthy, not because we say so, but because we ARE. We were created to be worthy of amazing lives and all short of what we allow every time. We treat ourselves like we are undeserving and unworthy. Universal Power created this beautiful world all for US. All we need to do is behave like it is precious, all of it, and it IS! I love this life…so amazing and wonderful and beautiful. Every day…all the time…even the confusing parts…especially them. They teach me the most.

Published by: Kelly

I am a therapist and counselor with long-term recovery from addictions and personal trauma. My writing reflects these experiences and the road I have traveled in 12-Step recovery settings, along with the work I have done for over 30 years in the field. My love of dolphins includes the stories of them being healers in places all over the world. I long to offer every broken spirit and body the experience of a healing hug. May my words and stories inform, uplift and delight your spirit and soothe your weary heart.

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