COURAGE MONTH: DAY 15: “I had to cease to mourn what could never be and make the most of what was possible. And I would begin doing that by trying to mend the hurts of the past.”― Cameron Dokey
Buddhist teachings tell us that suffering comes from wanting something other than what IS. And we all do it from time to time. I am at peace only when I live fully with this moment and all it brings me. No matter what I think or believe about it.
I don’t have to like it, but I DO have to accept it, or I will make my life miserable. So I must learn to take this moment and all of life as it exists and create joy and happiness from there. I must also learn to do this with myself.
Any improvements I want to make in my life must begin with knowing who the hell I REALLY am, not who I want to believe I am. I must continue this process of deep and truthful inventory of my assets and liabilities, and clean up all the messes in my life to become more aligned with who I am here to be. This is not the first thing I want to do in the world, but it IS the ONLY thing that creates deep satisfaction with life and a comfortable sense of contentment for me.
One of the most unattractive human behaviors, to me, is the wah-wah of an adult person who is not getting what they want and is sunk into self-pity. It makes me sick! Really creeps me out. So I am not going to sit with that shit for long.
We are not here to wallow in maudlin remorse and sniveling. It is an ugly attitude that has nothing to recommend it. If we are acting like jerks, it is necessary to turn that shit around and get on with living like spiritual believers. We don’t have to believe; we just have to live like we do. Anything less is unacceptable and NOT any part of recovery. So, get off throne of King Baby and get on with recovering…or just get loaded until you are done and ready.