July 17

PATIENCE MONTH: DAY 17: “God’s presence is more visible when you go through darkness. But, with patience, that is when you get to see the light of God.”― Gift Gugu Mona

No amount of impatience will bring us to that Power. None. The only time I get to feel the presence is when I am quiet and patient. I have to be still to feel it. When I am agitated and stomping around like a baby, there is nothing going on good, no good energy, no good feelings, no sense of connection with anything except my icky stuff.

I have learned to sit outside my feelings, thoughts, and ideas. That is where the Universal Power is waiting to meet me. In my heart, not my head. Oh yeah! It is not in things, or people, or in anything other than that which I access last of all…my heart.

I have learned to live more and more of my life in my heart. Now, I can honestly say that I can leave that place of peace and connection in a hot second when I start to think. When fear or insecurity grabs me and runs off with my day, I am caught again in the web of Ego and all the shit that goes with that. That is the darkness this quote speaks about.

Truth is this: I create the darkness, or I can create the conditions under which I am sitting with the Power. Both conditions are up to me. Where do I want to live? In darkness and fear and anger, or in the “sunlight of the spirit” as the BB states?

When we learn to sit still and wait for the presence, we get it. It is quiet and shy at first, testing to see if we are really showing up. Then it becomes a companion that we can sit with whenever we let go of the steering wheel (thinking about self) and look for the quiet place in our hearts, not our  minds.

It may take some time to get there, but there is nowhere else to go anyway. Right?

Published by: Kelly

I am a therapist and counselor with long-term recovery from addictions and personal trauma. My writing reflects these experiences and the road I have traveled in 12-Step recovery settings, along with the work I have done for over 30 years in the field. My love of dolphins includes the stories of them being healers in places all over the world. I long to offer every broken spirit and body the experience of a healing hug. May my words and stories inform, uplift and delight your spirit and soothe your weary heart.

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