PATIENCE MONTH: DAY 11: “Only the steps of a one-step long journey can be taken all at the same time.”― Mokokoma Mokhonoana
I have never taken a one-step journey. So far. It might happen one day, but I take really long hikes and walks. And my journeys are ongoing really.
The journey here, the one to recovery and healing, is exceedingly long indeed. We might think we are taking 12 steps, but they go on for a lifetime. There is no end that I can see. Just when I think I have “recovered” I find that there is another way of healing from the same old crap I have worked through before, but on a deeper and more profound level.
Life requires patience, and will teach you patience. When we refuse to learn, we will be given a hammer blow to Ego to keep learning. The lessons never end, but my experience has shown me that I need to learn to pay attention the first time. There is less pain when I have less resistance.
Many addicts (and people in general) will say that life is hard or tough or that growth is painful. I absolutely disagree. Nothing is hard, firs t of all. It is uncomfortable, new, different, unusual; but never hard. That is a terrible word to use. It puts up a wall of resistance as soon as we think or speak it. Same thing with painful. The ONLY thing that creates pain in our growth is resistance to the lesson. Resistance to life is like sitting down in front of a plow and refusing to move, no matter what. Well, honey…there will be pain in that situation. Guaranteed.
Life is going to shift and grow around us, and if we are planted in one spot, refusing to move and shift and grow with it, we are screwed. So we must accept the changes, no matter what. This is the ultimate understanding of powerlessness. Period. Over everything. Then we can move into what we are supposed to be doing to align ourselves with the will of the Universal Power. It is what we said we were willing to do. Now we have to or be beaten to death by the plow rolling over us. Where ya going to run now?
And the truth really is this…when we do this stuff, really do this stuff, it is so damned good that we are amazed at how happy we can be. Yet, there will be a day when we are right back in the corner, refusing to accept something new going on. And there we are, right back at a step we took on something else, and in the process, all over again. See how that goes? Ego never sleeps, no matter how many times it gets smashed. Thank God we have this process to keep going. Yay!