June 29

HUMILITY MONTH: DAY 29: “You will never cease to be the most amazed person on earth at what God has done for you on the inside.”― Oswald Chambers

This is true for me almost every day. I wake up some mornings so excited to be me! That is NOT how I got here…absolutely not how I got here.

I am not talking about my appearance, my home, any of the accoutrements of life that we can be impressed with in our culture. But I am talking about the fact that I feel good about life and how I am living it. I am happy most of the time and grateful all of the time. I would certainly enjoy more money, more youth, blah, blah, blah; BUT I am so happy to be Kelly that it does not matter. I am focused on what is good and fine in my life today.

I have this horrible disease that not only destroys my sense of personal identity, but destroys EVERYTHING good and fine in my life and blames others for that destruction. I have that disease in spades! And I never want to forget how far I have come from being doomed to live in the depths of the hell I had created with everything I had ever been given. I could do it again in a second! I know I have what it takes to kill off all the joy in my world in nothing flat.

This has been a long, steady climb to the place where I am today. And I have not always been the most appreciative of God’s kids in that process. But today I am! And I would not change anything, lest I lose what is going on in my heart all the time. I am so in love with this process, these steps and how they transform us into Social Garbage into rock stars!

And it IS an inside job. That is where the change must happen in order for it to be sustained and lived and walked with each and every day. Tiny little shifts inside…one day at a time…and it is precious and rare and beautiful…yay God!