HUMILITY MONTH: DAY 26: “The disillusionment with our own abilities is, perhaps, one of the most important things that can ever happen to us.”― Tim Hansel
This happens with each bottom we hit. There are a LOT of bottoms for Ego to hit in this recovery process, or actually, in the process of life.
Every day I am made aware of some area of personal powerlessness. It makes me mad for a minute to know that I have little or no say about the running of the world, politics, religion, etc. And then I laugh and get over it.
For me, the greatest gift of being created is my sense of humor. While it may be dark and kind of sick at times, I love laughing! The more I laugh, the more happy and joy-filled I get to be. The more surrendered I am to the Will of something bigger than me and my tiny little part in the scheme of things.
I get to be a gigantic monster when living in Ego. The world looks and feels terrifying and I am constantly fighting for my “rights” or whatever you want to call it.
Here is the REAL truth…I have nothing to fight or to fight for. I just have to learn to laugh at my own drama and accept life as it comes to me today. What else would I be doing?
There are days when I dread what is placed in front of me, because I have another agenda. WTF? Like I have any clue what I am supposed to be doing at any time. My plans mean absolutely nothing in this universe to anyone. So get the hell over it!
That is the greatest spiritual lesson I know. Laughing at my silly plans and ideas. I think life is interfering with me…how incredibly arrogant and ridiculous that all is! Life is the greatest adventure at all…without any window dressing. Just as it comes. All I have to do is stop planning and scheming and get dressed and show up…that is all.