HUMILITY MONTH: DAY 7: “Humility is not a one-time lesson that comes when you have lost everything. It is a daily reminder of how far we have come, yet still short of who we can be through HIS guidance. Blessed is the soul that can recognize that he isn’t moving mountains, but God is for him.”― Shannon Alder
I remember when I was new to this recovery thing, still in a recovery home, so it was in my first 90 days, another woman and myself were talking about being humble. I knew I was humble, because I lost everything getting sober, not in drinking and using, but financially destitute as I got sober. That was very humbling for me.
As long as I could pull it together and point to my home and car, etc. I believed I was still okay. That was why I got everything removed I am sure. So, I am sitting in a recovery home and it was all gone. Wow! I believed that made me humble. My friend was in a similar situation, and we both had to buy generic cigarettes. We KNEW that was humbling…hahahaha!
So, this process has continued to allow me to become humble when I am stuck in Ego and to continue to strive for losing myself in life. Gratitude keeps me there more than anything I can think of. I look at life and see that I am not in charge, I am not in possession of answers, only more questions.
And I get to process these steps…this is Step 6. I get humbled by how many character defects (old ideas, Ego defenses) crop up daily when I am aware and paying attention to MY side of the street instead of someone else’s behaviors. That, too, is humbling. Because I do not have the ability to change that stuff without the help of Universal Power.
I need more help than I ever imagined back in the days of the smoking generic cigarettes. The beauty of a spiritual process is that we do not know what will be required to stay on the path. I could not have comprehended what it would take back then. I would have exploded if I had even a small glimpse of where this road would lead. Every day I am more and more blessed and happy to have a path to walk that is so amazing! And it is ALL Grace, all of it…I cannot and do not do it for myself.