May 13

INTEGRITY MONTH: DAY 13: “Because of course she had known she must go. She always did the thing because in obedience lay the integrity that God asked of her. If anyone had asked her what she meant by integrity she would not have been able to tell them, but she had seen it once like a picture in her mind, a root going down into the earth and drinking deeply there. No one was really alive without that root.”― Elizabeth Goudge

A favorite quote…love this one! The part about the root so resonates with me. I know my connection to Mother Earth. She is my everything! I am the ultimate Nature person.

A few times in my life, I did things that were not in accordance with that deep, deep root of the Earth. I felt it immediately. A big stone in my heart. And in my gut…and continuously carried in my mind. It was awful!

I don’t have this as strongly with what happens in the world of people. It is not the same. I certainly have a strong connection with my conscience and the voice of right and wrong, but it is not as powerful in the material world of commerce and relationships with people.

No big surprise, given the amounts of trauma I had with people in so much of my life. Nature, however, has never disappointed or hurt me. My trust there is impeccable, as is the majority of my behavior toward her.

The same goes with animals. They never disappoint me because I have no expectations of them. I let them be who they are.

People have been such a huge disappointment in my early life, because I thought they were who they said they were. They were not! And they were mean and brutal in many instances. So that has led to a deep well of distrust for me. I have learned to let them show me who they are and just be in acceptance of that. I don’t expect much, and have learned with some to just walk away because their mean-ness is all they show.

But the root goes into the planet…this beautiful marble (Mother) whom I love and want to honor in every way. Like I said, it hurt way more than anything when I was dishonorable toward her. It is like one time spanking a puppy and getting that face they have.  Haven’t ever done it again. Too mean. I find other ways with animals and my planet. They are my true loves.

Published by: Kelly

I am a therapist and counselor with long-term recovery from addictions and personal trauma. My writing reflects these experiences and the road I have traveled in 12-Step recovery settings, along with the work I have done for over 30 years in the field. My love of dolphins includes the stories of them being healers in places all over the world. I long to offer every broken spirit and body the experience of a healing hug. May my words and stories inform, uplift and delight your spirit and soothe your weary heart.

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