May 8

INTEGRITY MONTH: DAY 8: “Fear nothing but your conscience.” ― Suzy Kassem

I fear one other thing…my own judgment. It can be brutal, a true source of mean pain for me. I am not happy that Ego gets to me in this way so often. It is a real chore to keep it from being that mean voice I don’t want to hear.

None of us do. It is a different voice. NOT our conscience at all. Meditation is the only way I can tell the voice to shut up. I use a mantra and guided meditations when it gets too powerful for me to silence. I have a deep well of shame and anger that this sucker draws from to torment me.

Recovery is all about knowing that the voice of our conscience does not beat us up. It is the judgment part of our beings that causes this pain…and it has no purpose at all.

Being wrong in something we say or do or believe is not a reason for a beating…nothing is. Kindness is the way the heart and soul respond to error. Conscience uses those and only re-focuses our intention and direction gently, not with a whip and chair. Those are tools of Ego.

No matter where we got these tools, we can lay them down and work on using truly corrective tools of compassion, acceptance, and love. That is the real journey here.

Published by: Kelly

I am a therapist and counselor with long-term recovery from addictions and personal trauma. My writing reflects these experiences and the road I have traveled in 12-Step recovery settings, along with the work I have done for over 30 years in the field. My love of dolphins includes the stories of them being healers in places all over the world. I long to offer every broken spirit and body the experience of a healing hug. May my words and stories inform, uplift and delight your spirit and soothe your weary heart.

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