HONESTY MONTH: DAY 1: “If you’re not honest with yourself, life will never be honest with you.”― Leigh Brackett
New quote today to begin the month. I love Step 4 more than most, I guess. I know I have worked with this step in my personal life 100s of times. I inventory everything that makes me feel uncomfortable. Just because I always get to the truth of how I am screwing up my life behind ideas that seem to be a permanent part of my psyche.
Less and less often, however, do I see myself in as distorted a fashion as when I began this process. Life is a process of being able to see truth more deeply every day. I love that.
Learning to be honest with me is the road to a great life. I don’t have to con myself any more. And I can admit things that would have wiped me off the face of the planet when I was new. I did not know I could practice that kind of radical self-honesty when I began.
I don’t know about you, but I really had intense blinders on about who was doing what, even after several years and lots of these 4th steps. It is an interesting process, and one that has immense value for allowing me to free myself from those delusional beliefs and old ideas. I love it!
I wonder sometimes about how much less I could do around this recovery deal. But the pain I am capable of causing with my deluded sense of identity gives me incentive to keep working. I love to find myself in the writing and hope I never get past that sense of AHA! I get when I do another inventory. This kind of truth is really what is meant by, “The truth shall set you free.”
I am free today to be at one with myself as much as I am. It is a wonderful feeling…and I know I will get from life more to learn every day…I am embracing all of that.