January 11

ACCEPTANCE MONTH: DAY 11: “We are all going, I thought, and it applies to turtles and turtlenecks, Alaska the girl and Alaska the place, because nothing can last, not even the earth itself. The Buddha said that suffering was caused by desire, we’d learned, and that the cessation of desire meant the cessation of suffering. When you stopped wishing things wouldn’t fall apart, you’d stop suffering when they did.”― John Green

A perfect quote about the nature of life. Perfect. This is what we resist and fight…when we are Ego-bound. We fight aging, we fight endings, we fight depletion and all the ebb and flow of life itself. And we wonder why we are miserable. Well, duh!

When I am into total Acceptance, I am happy for this moment, and this one…because I am truly embracing the totality of endings and depletion. My life will be 10 minutes shorter when I finish this writing today. They take only a few minutes. I do no preparation. I just sit with the quote for about 30 seconds and go at it.

I am the most amazed when I finish because I don’t write this. It is all flow. I seldom go back and reread anything, just send it off. It is out and on the page, as it were. And I feel good for having written and considered each piece. Some really sing to me, others not so much.

And I can feel an empty space in my body where it lived and needed to come out. Writing does that for me. It is an emptying out of something I seldom know is there. I have felt that after a good conversation with someone where meaningful ideas and emotions are let out. I feel cleansed. This, too, is a sort of dying. The words cannot be unspoken or unwritten. They exist in the Universe in ways they did not exist before that moment. And now, they are gone from my being and into the ethers. I love that thought/idea/sensation!

I have no desire to recapture that moment. It frees me in some fashion to truly embrace the next and the one after that. I could not have been in this day any other way. Isn’t that wonderful to contemplate?

I love my brain on these days when existential crap is just all around me. Hahaha!

And so it goes. My life is one full moon shorter than it was yesterday or even this morning when the sun came up. And I am blessed with all of those I have lived with and through. Not one was the same, and they all created me to be here in this moment…love it! Have a NEW day, a really NEW day, where letting go of all that WAS is what you practice. BEING NEW…

Published by: Kelly

I am a therapist and counselor with long-term recovery from addictions and personal trauma. My writing reflects these experiences and the road I have traveled in 12-Step recovery settings, along with the work I have done for over 30 years in the field. My love of dolphins includes the stories of them being healers in places all over the world. I long to offer every broken spirit and body the experience of a healing hug. May my words and stories inform, uplift and delight your spirit and soothe your weary heart.

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