November 18

GRATITUDE MONTH: DAY 18: “I have been finding treasures in places I did not want to search. I have been hearing wisdom from tongues I did not want to listen. I have been finding beauty where I did not want to look. And I have learned so much from journeys I did not want to take. Forgive me, O Gracious One; for I have been closing my ears and eyes for too long. I have learned that miracles are only called miracles because they are often witnessed by only those who can see through all of life’s illusions. I am ready to see what really exists on other side, what exists behind the blinds, and taste all the ugly fruit instead of all that looks right, plump and ripe.”― Suzy Kassem

I love this quote. It is so important that we do things that are in front of us, even when we have no desire to do some of them. I did NOT want to do any of the steps. None of them seemed like things I needed anyway…lol…big LOL!

And most of the people I know have resisted truly diving into step work in significant or deep ways. It is terrifying that they might truly encounter the bogey-man of their own mistaken beliefs and practices. It is so much easier to blame the world, God and others for their pain and fear.

I have seen a lot lately. And I have been able to hold counsel within my heart about most of it. It is the product of doing things I did not particularly want to do. We all get that. It is life. And life is in session all the time.

Was puzzled about something that happened the other day and then I realized what it was all about. It only took a few minutes. I have a friend who reframed the experience in our conversation in a way that is so amazing. He is not someone I consider as spiritual sometimes. But we have this dynamic connection and I could not figure it out for forever. Now I am getting to see past my initial idea of what that was. It is so powerful and lovely. I am blessed.

Funny how life unfolds. I am certain I know what something is, then it reveals itself to be entirely something else! I love that! Most of my most powerful teachings have been around things I did not entirely see in the moment. And did not like, of course. Who we think we are and strive to project out into the world is so very different from what that all really is.

I am, too, ready to taste ALL the fruit. I am ready to suspend my pre-conceived ideas about people, places and things in order to truly learn to live. Thank goodness I am not done yet!

Published by: Kelly

I am a therapist and counselor with long-term recovery from addictions and personal trauma. My writing reflects these experiences and the road I have traveled in 12-Step recovery settings, along with the work I have done for over 30 years in the field. My love of dolphins includes the stories of them being healers in places all over the world. I long to offer every broken spirit and body the experience of a healing hug. May my words and stories inform, uplift and delight your spirit and soothe your weary heart.

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