November 2

GRATITUDE MONTH: DAY 2: “Those with a grateful mindset tend to see the message in the mess. And even though life may knock them down, the grateful find reasons, if even small ones, to get up.”― Steve Maraboli

The funniest thing can happen to me and cause a whirlwind of fear. It is our Ego-based thinking and conditioning, over so many years, that tells us we are not okay if we have a shift in life that feels unusual for us.

Hahahaha! That is such a lie. And we can become frozen in fear by the damnedest things; a slight or flip comment from a co-worker, a snub by a neighbor, seeing our bank account balance fall below some line that defines broke for us, a health concern, a seemingly bad correspondence in the mail, so MANY things!

I have had all of these within the last couple of days. Beautiful days marred in their perfection by the sudden heart-stopping imaginary Bogey man of my Ego. Ugh! I hate that.

I have learned to stop the thinking and sing a song my beautiful sponsor, Allene…(the mean one!), taught us many years ago…”Oh, thank you God, Oh, thank you God…”

It never fails to restore my breathing and my heart rate to a more normal balance. And to make me laugh because I am such an idiot. Every single time, EVERY SINGLE TIME…I have seen my life transformed when I let go of fear and embrace gratitude.

The shift we all need to have. So simple and yet the journey of a thousand miles when we don’t know how to take it by ourselves. I never need to call anyone or do anything except to remember the beautiful list I write each morning and sing my song. I am so, so grateful for the ongoing process that now knows when to pull me up by my bootstraps and return my to sanity.

And I DO see the message in the mess. And I have been knocked down plenty hard only a couple of times, the rest are all my imagination. Which is sometimes creative and clever and full of funny surprises for me…oh wait! That is ALL the time, I just react weirdly to some of them, don’t I?

Published by: Kelly

I am a therapist and counselor with long-term recovery from addictions and personal trauma. My writing reflects these experiences and the road I have traveled in 12-Step recovery settings, along with the work I have done for over 30 years in the field. My love of dolphins includes the stories of them being healers in places all over the world. I long to offer every broken spirit and body the experience of a healing hug. May my words and stories inform, uplift and delight your spirit and soothe your weary heart.

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