June 14

HUMIILITY MONTH: DAY 14: “Life is a long lesson in humility.” ― J.M. Barrie

As we go down this road, we will be brought to places of great humility. I do not see another road here. I know aging is a series of surrenders to the way of this Universe.

We have to let go of what we did as children, as pre-teens, as teens, as young adults. It seems to me that each day I have to embrace the letting go of something I had a handle on just last week. Yikes! The ego is not crazy about this. In fact, it is damned angry about it!

We fight, sometimes, to hold on to last week’s victory. Sometimes last year’s, or maybe even that of some time far in the past. What? I could do that only 3 years ago…whatever the story is we tell ourselves.

When I was 12, I could do cartwheels down the length of a long beach. Today, I am hard-pressed to do even one. I still can, but it scares me a bit.

However, these physical abilities may have been replaced  with other skills I did not have then. Patience is one that I have become a bit better with. Aging does bring us some patience. Not enough, it seems. But some.

For instance, another thing I did not possess at age 12. I may have loved Peter Pan and I may have even known that J.M. Barrie was the author. What I did not know, until many, many years later, was that Mr. Barrie was a deeply spiritual man who wrote some lovely small books about life. I have discovered that, over the course of my life, in finding antique books in various places and reading them. I have on that I do not wish to part with that I found at the age of 50 or so and read with my husband. Sweet! It came at a time when we were preparing for his dying time and the Universe gifted us with significantly deep and spiritual events and experiences.

Everything is coming to an end and opening up into a new beginning. That is impossible to stop or to make wait for me to be ready. It is my job around here, as a human, to learn to accept and accommodate that fact. I MUST shift and move into acceptance and adaptation of what I want and believe to become more closely aligned with what IS. Humility. Again and again and again. It has taken this lifetime to learn these facts, may I be forever grateful and aware and accepting of this lesson.