March 24

FAITH MONTH: DAY 24: “I talk to God, but the sky is empty.” ― Sylvia Plath

We are going to get what we put out there in this life. When we live a dishonest life, we will reap those kinds of benefits.

My experience with having lived these two dynamics is that I had a lot of tragedy and trauma when I was creating that in the lives of others. When it stopped and I was able to begin to reframe that story to the one it has become today, it lessened. Until, bit by bit, there is no trauma or story in my life.

Does this mean nothing happens that I don’t like? Oh, far from it. There is enough stuff going on that is not savory to me for me to get to practice a lot of spiritual principles on a regular basis. I am not the author of every page.

But, I am accepting of it all. And I do not view life as a drama like I once did. I have worked with a couple of people who are so bitter and unhappy about their lives, all the time. Chronic malcontents. All the time. It is so uncomfortable to tell them time and again that they can choose to re-write what they are getting from life whenever they want.

When nothing changes, nothing changes. Sometimes people stay around here for a long, long time and do no work and it sure shows. They are so unhappy and miserable. I really don’t know with all of them, but the ones I have worked with either do the work or I have to cut them loose. I cannot take the constant complaining and their resentments, etc. We are here to live differently. The steps teach us that, but they MUST be rigorously applied. Again and again and again.

There may be other factors for some, but they are consistent, in my experience.

Today, I know why the sky is empty. There is nothing there that has the Power I carry with me in my heart. That is where it has always been. All the old ideas I had about that are in my mind. I made them up after listening to too many religious groups who told me who THEIR God was. Not mine. I found mine. Lives with me all the time. There is no church I need to visit. There is no shrine I need to honor or offer to. It is my heart. Of course. Where love lives. Perfect.

We cannot live a spiritual life if we are a fraud, if we are still doing nothing to clean up the lives we lead and get out of other people’s business. It can be wonderfully distracting, but it ain’t our job. We have to learn to work through those old ideas and learn to let go and see life from new vantage points. Get a new perspective on it all. Stop creating the same old dynamics and blaming others and the situations in our lives for our behaviors and attitudes. Life is beautiful when it is lived in accordance with the heart, not the fearful mind. The sky is empty, but my heart is very, very, very full.

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Published by: Kelly

I am a therapist and counselor with long-term recovery from addictions and personal trauma. My writing reflects these experiences and the road I have traveled in 12-Step recovery settings, along with the work I have done for over 30 years in the field. My love of dolphins includes the stories of them being healers in places all over the world. I long to offer every broken spirit and body the experience of a healing hug. May my words and stories inform, uplift and delight your spirit and soothe your weary heart.

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