FAITH MONTH: DAY 3: “Whether or not you believe in God, you must believe this: when we as a species abandon our trust in a power greater than us, we abandon our sense of accountability. Faiths… all faiths… are admonitions that there is something we cannot understand, something to which we are accountable. With faith we are accountable to each other, to ourselves, and to a higher truth. Religion is flawed, but only because man is flawed. The church consists of a brotherhood of imperfect, simple souls wanting only to be a voice of compassion in a world spinning out of control.” ― Dan Brown
A lot of us were trained in some kind of religion. Not everyone, but most of us were exposed to that kind of “belief” system. I, for one, found it wanting and uninspiring. I was taught to FEAR God, so was always trying to hide from punishment.
That is not what I wanted when you guys told me I had to decide to turn my life and will over to a Higher Power. That is the reason for a lot of the shame in this world. And there is nothing productive about being shamed over and over again for our humanity.
We have all committed mistakes and most of us have committed crimes. I certainly have. Because I lived in fear. It is the most corrosive thing we can develop. Ego uses fear as its primary weapon. Once I understood the dynamic between fear and Ego, I was okay with this spiritual path. I was tired of being afraid all the time.
I asked that Power to relieve me of Ego and fear. It was the first time I felt connected to the Universe in any significant way. I thank th Universe for this every day while I meditate. That I am relieved of fear and Ego. It is not ALL gone yet, but each day I get what I need to get out of bed and move into the day. And if something comes up during the day, I just remind myself I am grabbing back on to it. Easy enough, most of the time.
I love this step. I love everything about it. And way more than all the rest combined, it is the one I see most people have trouble with. Their fear makes them so controlling and demanding that they just cannot let go and allow their life to unfold peacefully. They fight everything and everybody. Today I am grateful to let go of the fight.
Life is life. It is none of my business. None of my business. That is so simple and so freeing. I cannot wait to go out and just do what is in front of me. No grand schemes, no control, no need for fear. I love it!