November 20

GRATITUDE MONTH: DAY 20: “If I’m living without being thankful, I’m not living. It may be that I’m not even existing. In fact, it may be that all I’m doing is waiting for death to show up without even realizing it. Therefore, I’d welcome anything that would drive me to being thankful for it is that which would drive me to living.” ― Craig D. Lounsbrough

Oh! I love this one! We are almost always driven by our psychic pain to do that which will “fix” or “remove” that pain. We are driven by enormous pressure from that psychic pain to do ANYTHING that will bring relief.

SO, isn’t it wonderful to get to THAT place? Never, ever, ever underestimate the value of a strong bottom. It will bring us to do that which we are never, ever, ever going to do any other way. I am only motivated by self-interest and the strong desire to always be happy and never, ever, ever feel any discomfort or doubt.

THEREFORE, I only do this stuff because it brings me those results. I am happy. I am joyous. I am free!

And I like it like that, so I keep doing what is bringing to me those benefits.

And, when I let go of some of the discipline for a minute and get the results of THAT, I am the first one right back into the discipline. Oh yeah!

SO, I am here to thank the pain, the insanity, the codependence, the addiction(s)…so many! And all of those who are here to show me the mirror of just how big an entitled asshole I truly am.

OKAY! I love to welcome ALL of it for driving me to being thankful for it is THAT which would drive me to living. Isn’t that wonderful?

I think so! I never would have lived, truly lived, without hitting that horrible bottom with alcohol and drugs. Then when I hit that horrible bottom with my slutty behaviors and entitled attitudes around men. Then again when I hit several bottoms around money. And again when I hit more bottoms around old ideas and the way(s) in which I was viewing the world.

And so on and so on and so on. Over and over again, I get to say thank you to all the things in this life that slap me upside the head and get my attention, so I can heal them. What a tremendous blessing it all is! I want to be really, really LIVING….OUT LOUD…IN PERSON…LIVE AND IN COLOR AND IN YOUR FACE!!! I think I am doing pretty good so far…can’t wait to step it up!

Published by: Kelly

I am a therapist and counselor with long-term recovery from addictions and personal trauma. My writing reflects these experiences and the road I have traveled in 12-Step recovery settings, along with the work I have done for over 30 years in the field. My love of dolphins includes the stories of them being healers in places all over the world. I long to offer every broken spirit and body the experience of a healing hug. May my words and stories inform, uplift and delight your spirit and soothe your weary heart.

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