DISCIPLINE MONTH: DAY 9: “Life is a curriculum unique to every student.” ― Joyce Rachelle
We are all going to experience different phases of life at different times. I used to be so grateful that when I was in a good place, I would be in meetings with others who were not, and vice-versa. I think it would be horrible if all of us were in a bad place at the same time.
As it is, addicts have so much ego that their outlook is dim, at best. It is our job to turn that negativity into something good and positive. I love doing this. Step 10 is really about seeing what I have done to be an asshole that day and cleaning it up.
If I don’t have the discipline to do this work day after day, it piles up into a bag of crap that I cannot lift. Then I am in full blown resentment and feeling sorry for Kelly.
We never know what is coming next. It can be seen through the eyes of fear or the eyes of love. I want to always be in love with me and my life. Always. It is so easy to do. I let go of the BS stories I have around what is happening and look with new vision at the world around me. I have no attachment to things that do not affect me personally. And, the truth is, NONE of it does! That is so cool!
We are all here to learn these things. The faster and stronger our re-learning is, the faster we get to walk in the Sunshine of the Spirit.
There are so many ingredients in this happiness: Truth, Honesty, Integrity, Gratitude, Hope, Faith, lots of work, Service, Humility, Generosity, Love, and much more. I cannot live without these things, they are the foundation of the life I live today.
Notice that money, sex, relationships, and nice cars are not on the list. Not even shoes! Ugh! I have been totally happy millions of times in my life when I was barefoot. In fact, mostly that. So, they are a bonus, for me. I love them, but they are not the key to anything for me.
But the rest of it is. I want to go to this curriculum like I do when I go to any other. With my pens in my pocket, lots of paper for taking notes, a clear mind, an empty mind (not-knowing mind), an open heart and the desire to keep learning and growing into those things I stated above.
I really am living an amazing and happy life. I can’t wait to see what the next lesson is!