September 22

FREEDOM MONTH: DAY 22: “Only a mind free of impediment is capable of grasping the chaotic beauty of the world. This is our greatest asset.” ― Oliver Bowden

When we are living inside our self-centeredness, we are only focused on what is happening to ME. There is no sense of the patterns and richness of life, we cannot see beyond our own noses.

Perspective is an amazing gift. We can use it or not, and it will always benefit us when we do. Life does NOT happen to us, it happens for us. We are all here for a brief moment to do whatever our path determines. That is written by the Universal Power. We have come here to do that. Because the Power is the Power, we have a small amount of say over how that goes.

I truly believe that the difference between MY will and God’s will is this: My will is to believe that I have the power to do whatever I want and then I do; God’s will is what is happening in the world around me. So, when I try to impose MY will on my life, I am disappointed, angry, frustrated and resentful. When I live in accord with the will of God, I am happy, joyous and free.

Why? Because I am not running the Universe. I am letting go of expectations and control. I accept what is going on around me and move with the flow of that. I make decisions that are not based on what I want, but what I can give back and give to.

Freedom, as in Step 9, comes from me letting go of those things I tell myself about why I am not getting my way and begin to shift my perspective. That means I can see the perfection and beauty of the world around me. I do this by not looking through the self-centered microscope of MY will and look from a distance at the magnificent dance of life going on for ALL of us. We are tiny ants living in a world where every dot has its place in the picture.

I use the analogy of going up and sitting on the clouds with the angels and looking down at the dance. It is beautiful and perfect. What affects my little world is so small and tiny, but also significant, because it ripples out from me to impact the dance itself. When I am out of step, the dance is not as lovely as it is designed to be, and I am a miserable bitch. So, I do my best to dance to the music that is playing, not my own tune.

We are all dancers here. We are all tiny pieces of a wonderful and beautiful life. And shifting my perspective to seeing the big picture is the way I get out of self and into life. I truly do believe that the difference between the will of that Power and the will of Kelly is this shift in where I sit and with whose eyes I see.

Published by: Kelly

I am a therapist and counselor with long-term recovery from addictions and personal trauma. My writing reflects these experiences and the road I have traveled in 12-Step recovery settings, along with the work I have done for over 30 years in the field. My love of dolphins includes the stories of them being healers in places all over the world. I long to offer every broken spirit and body the experience of a healing hug. May my words and stories inform, uplift and delight your spirit and soothe your weary heart.

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