July 16

PATIENCE MONTH: DAY 16: “We seem to have lost the gift of patience, of waiting for time to unfold its story.” ― Mary Irish

I am not sure when there was a time of patience. When I watch old movies or read literature from certain eras to understand the past, I am seeing lack of patience in many areas.

I love the idea of “waiting for time to unfold its story.” That is a lovely phrase and a very lovely idea. It appeals to me.

When we are looking at Step 7, we are asking for assistance with this removal of character defects. It really does not address this issue in the BB or the 12×12, but I have met a lot of folks who have reportedly worked this step, and I am one of them. We still have character defects in abundance! It is never spoken of how long this may take. In this instance, I can honestly say that I am seldom impatient with that process. Haha!

When it comes to the fears that drive these defects, I don’t believe they ever get permanently removed. I cannot imagine a world where I would wake up on any day without the Screaming Purple Monkeys! It would be kind of scary and quiet!

They are so hugely with me now that I cannot sleep more than a couple of hours each night. This has always been the case when I am moving. There are so many moving pieces to attend to and so many moving parts.

While it is all being done in the fashion I had hoped for, I am very tired. Both due to lack of sleep and the physical demands of moving and packing and driving and rinse and repeat. I really enjoy some of the pieces of this, but it is physically demanding. So, I hope that those (SPM) let me sleep sometime very soon. I know I will get to, because this is a frequent occurrence in my life.

I will wait for time to unfold its story here. It will be lovely in my new home and new city. I will miss some folks from here, but the ones who are supposed to remain in my life will. That I know. It always works like that.

I am excited and happy to move into this new adventure. But I must remain present and aware of what is happening in each moment as it happens. I guess this all gets better and better. Perhaps, like the rest of the steps, this is also a process.

Published by: Kelly

I am a therapist and counselor with long-term recovery from addictions and personal trauma. My writing reflects these experiences and the road I have traveled in 12-Step recovery settings, along with the work I have done for over 30 years in the field. My love of dolphins includes the stories of them being healers in places all over the world. I long to offer every broken spirit and body the experience of a healing hug. May my words and stories inform, uplift and delight your spirit and soothe your weary heart.

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