May 17

INTEGRITY MONTH: DAY 17: “Oh, superior divine,

Take me from fictitious to the factual,

Take me from the gloom of ignorance to

The illumination of wisdom,

And take me from iniquity to integrity.” ― Jyoti Patel

This poem/prayer is new to me this year. I am very happy to have found it. These principles are all addressed here. And the idea is this: that our hearts are the center of the home of the Divine, whatever name you may use.

We are not connected in our minds, but in our hearts. I believe that we are centered in our hearts to find the spirit of what it is that Creation is all about. And when I pray, I am seeking that wise counsel, that Superior Divine that lives inside of me and knows the difference between what I am thinking and what I want to be doing.

This is the journey. From the base of ego (mind) to the heart of the spirit (heart.) What a terrifically long journey that is! If I am the Essence of the Creator, which I believe, then that Essence is alive in my heart, just waiting for me to access and allow it to run this show.

That keeps me right-sized. I am NOT the Godhead, but the manifestation of it. Just as you are, and you, and you, and you.

We KNOW when we are living from that space or when we are in ego. It is so easy for us to feel it. But we must be still and let that quiet become our ruling voice. Not as easy as it sounds.

When I get quiet for some time, I get centered. And then the smallest life detail will crop up, and I am off and running, ego driving the bus again. Ugh!

I long to be integral, wise and illuminated! My eyes and heart opened to the joy and beauty of the world around me, without needing to judge and call things negative or positive, good or bad, right or wrong…in total acceptance that it all just IS.

Whether we become disrupted by hurricanes or tornadoes or fire or volcanoes, to see the beauty of the disruption and our incredibly silly notions of all of that. Our beliefs exploded into fragments of truth, over and over and over again. There will be LIFE and we will not always embrace it right away. And we will suffer from that.

Then we will let go of the idea that is harming us so deeply and move past it into peace. We have this, in our hearts, to go to that quiet space and sit and dwell…OR we can move back into the mind space and judge and hate and demand and pout…like little children who are spoiled and entitled. Ugh! That is so ugly…and yet we all are there, too much of our lives.

I am at peace, having written this. It will last until I become impatient, demanding and selfish once more. May I live longer in this one than that one. Peace!

Published by: Kelly

I am a therapist and counselor with long-term recovery from addictions and personal trauma. My writing reflects these experiences and the road I have traveled in 12-Step recovery settings, along with the work I have done for over 30 years in the field. My love of dolphins includes the stories of them being healers in places all over the world. I long to offer every broken spirit and body the experience of a healing hug. May my words and stories inform, uplift and delight your spirit and soothe your weary heart.

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