HONESTY MONTH: DAY 8:
“Nothing is easier than self-deceit.
For what every man wishes,
that he also believes to be true.” ― Demosthenes
Looking into the mirror, really looking, is the last thing we want to do. It is the harshest reality of life. We want to believe that we are who we think we are. This means we do not easily assess our faults, our weaknesses, our character defects readily.
Most of us spend thousands of hours in denial. Years believing that the problems we encounter are YOU. That the things we would change are out in the world, rather than within ourselves. This kind of dishonesty is a terrific hurdle to overcome. It is also the crux of recovery.
Learning to own our wrinkles, both spiritual and physical, is the process here folks. It is what we MUST do in order to get authentic. It is crucial to our very lives as recovering addicts.
I love this step, but I don’t always like it. I love the easier, softer way of seeing YOU as being my problem. Maybe you can see that I have wrinkles; I, quite frankly do NOT believe it. I am grateful for the concept of a sponsor who can guide me to the truth. It really is the only place I want to live today.