GRATITUDE MONTH: DAY 19: “The miracle is not to walk on water. The miracle is to walk on the green earth, dwelling deeply in the present moment and feeling truly alive.” ― Thich Nhat Hanh
Addicts can be so intensely grandiose. It is hard for us to practice gratitude, because gratitude requires the humility to own that whatever is good and fine in the world has nothing to do with us!
We cannot create anything beautiful or perfect or even ordinary without Divine intervention. There is nothing so simple as to walk and know that whatever we have on our feet, whatever we are walking on, whatever we are engaged in, our work, our destination, the people who walk beside us; all of it is a miracle!
Our every breath is a miracle! We cannot give anyone, including ourselves, the gift of even one breath. In our grandiosity, it is impossible to recognize this. We are so busy taking credit for what we do and showing off (to cover our own insecurity!) that we cannot take that moment to recognize and thank the Creator who truly made it all possible.
To empty our minds of everything but each step we take is the challenge of Step 11. Not to pray for what we want and think we need. But to be completely mindful in that moment of what is happening and who is truly responsible for that miracle.
We love to take credit for what we have in recovery as well. It ain’t ours! We take chips and cakes and act like it belongs to us. We get all puffed up and speechify and clap our hands, as if there were some accomplishment that we can take a bow for.
None! It is truly amazing that we get to breathe free air, to let go the shackles of addiction and have a moment to pay attention to. Yet, we believe we are entitled to more and more. I love when someone new says “Oh, that person has ____ years of recovery and they are acting like that????” So much ego and judgment going on there!
The miracle is only that they are that long in recovery. Whatever they are doing has NOTHING to do with the observer. Keep your eyes on your own feet. Walk the journey YOU are here to walk. Meditate and remain mindful of YOUR path. When we do this, we have no time to look at others.
The miracle is to be fully HUM…human, humble, and remain in that sense of humanity which gives us a sense of humor…use it and live. Let go of the thinking ego mind which judges and criticizes and condemns others because we believe it makes us better people.
Walk freely if you are blessed enough to be alive today! Watch your feet and say, “thank you” for every step. There are folks who cannot walk at all…it IS a miracle!