COURAGE MONTH: DAY 12: “You can build walls all the way to the sky and I will find a way to fly above them. You can try to pin me down with a hundred thousand arms, but I will find a way to resist. And there are many of us out there, more than you think. People who refuse to stop believing. People who refuse to come to earth. People who love in a world without walls, people who love into hate, into refusal, against hope, and without fear.” – Lauren Oliver
This is a very inspirational quote to me. I want to BE one of these people! I want to be one who Never, Ever gives up on life, on love, on healing, and on miracles.
So far, that has been the journey. We seem to be impelled from within, even in the darkest times, to keep going. The human spirit is a wondrous thing to me!
I know so many folks who thought they wanted to be done with life and were unable to do so. That is certainly my story of coming to this place. Over half of my life was spent in confusion, fear and pain of active addiction. Now, the second half has been reached in recovery. That is wonderful for me. I really did not believe that could happen.
My new goal is to reach 50 years of recovery. Not 40, which is a big marker ahead of me, not even 35, although I will love them both. I want to get to 50! We will see.
I believe myself to be this kind of person, one who is going into positive places all the time. I hope so. I want to look toward the sky and know that all dreams are possible, all love is possible, and all things are miraculous in life.
I know how much love I have received since I got to this place. I know how much laughter and healing and joy I have embraced. I know how much resistance and fear I have dealt with and walked through to be here now.
I want to believe in the indomitable and never-ending beauty of life. The ocean just keeps rolling in, all over the world; the sun keeps coming up, all over the world; the sunsets are just as beautiful everywhere as those I see in the evenings. People fall in love, babies are born, kittens and puppies and butterflies abound!
When I focus on these things, it is not a courageous act to want to live as big and loud as I can. It is a selfish and joyful thing. When I focus on my fear and anger and regret or disappointment, I cannot even begin to want to live another day.
When I focus on the miracle on YOU and LIFE and all the beauty in this world, I cannot wait to see more.
When I focus on myself and my darkness, it is too much to bear for even one more single minute.
So, the problem, my friends, is that we ALL have a courageous spirit. We have listened to the wrong voice and tuned out the right one. We have focused on the wrong things (SELF!) and forgotten the right focus (NATURE, GOD, LOVE!).
So, today, I will have the courage to be inspired to live with my eyes on the good, the right, the inspiring and step into THAT. Join me, won’t you?
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