June 19

HUMILITY MONTH: DAY 19: “Humility is throwing oneself away in complete concentration on something or someone else.” ― Madeleine L’Engle

When I am working, in a group or one-on-one with someone, I get lost in the work. When I write, I am lost in the flow of things coming through me.

Sometimes I have to stop and reset myself, if I feel connected to my own story or my own thoughts. When I do that, I am not able to feel the flow of energy that happens when I lose myself in the process of working with others.

This is the strangest sensation. I disconnect from my head and connect in my heart. I was sharing recently with someone that I am intuitively able to do and say and direct the things that come from a space that is not ME. I love that.

Why? Because it tells me that I am not giving of my intellect or from what I know, but from a place of knowing that is NOT me. The energy runs through me and into the space between myself and that person. I get completely lost, almost like a trance sometimes.

I really love that. Heart-to-heart communication. It was the topic of a class I took last week. I was astonished at how much I intuit these exchanges and that they form the path of groups I do and run. There is a plan, but I seldom follow the script for the plan. It is not necessary. I feel the energy of the group and GO!

The energy I get from that is really lovely. I get lost in it. No matter how tired I may be, there is something that flows through my body and I can go for hours. Same with one-on-one work I do in either a professional setting or with friends, sponsees, whomever.

I call this a healing exchange. We open our hearts and there is a loving exchange of energy that goes on. Science has observed this exchange and recognizes the intention of healing that is set; and then supports it by sending healing energy into the situation.

I first encountered this when I was very young and played with animals and planted flowers. Then when I saw how much energy I could generate on a windy day (I grew up in the heart of the Santa Ana winds). It later came to me in Reiki training and I read more about it in the Celestine Prophecy books and other healing modalities.

Then I got training in my Medicine ways and found more energy available to me when I learned to call it in and through me. I do not create it, it is the spiral energy of all things created by Universal Power. What I feel is this energy exchange when we are open to healing.

It produces synergy, a mutual opening of places in our hearts, bodies and minds that need to be healed.

Ancient traditions understood this and worked with it to heal illness and wounds, spiritual, emotional and physical.

Writers, actors, artists, creative people of all kinds will tell you that they create by “channeling” something they do not always understand, but can feel. It feels good, and ego is suspended when this occurs. It also happens for many people in meditation, which is why that focus of energy is like setting a healing intention.

Getting lost in the exchange we have with others, with Nature, with animals or the ocean is transporting our spirit without thinking about it. I love this feeling! And it means I am living completely from my heart, rather than my head.

When I live from my head, I have an agenda for those I work with. I am attempting to force them to do what I think is in their best interests. This is a controlling device, and they feel it. When we work with others in recovery, we must always remove our agendas, our plans, our biases and do what we are given by Spirit to do. That is where the real recovery lies. It is beautiful and lovely. And it takes all my character defects out of the equation, for they cannot live in healing and love and my heart.