June 12

HUMILITY MONTH: DAY 12: “No pain that we suffer, no trial that we experience is wasted. It ministers to our education, to the development of such qualities as patience, faith, fortitude and humility. All that we suffer and all that we endure, especially when we endure it patiently, builds up our characters, purifies our hearts, expands our souls, and makes us more tender and charitable, more worthy to be called the children of God . . . and it is through sorrow and suffering, toil and tribulation, that we gain the education that we come here to acquire and which will make us more like our Father and Mother in heaven.” ― Orson F. Whitney

I truly believe that “Nothing, absolutely nothing happens in God’s world by mistake.” This is the sum total of my faith in the Universe. I have had opportunity to heal things that seemed horrible and so unfair I could not comprehend their purpose.

We have ALL had life experiences that seemed horrific and damaging in ways we cannot fathom. Some of us have perpetrated things that we cannot seem to wrap our heads around. That is our humanity. We all have a past that does not shine its best light on who we wanted to be and what we wanted to do. Addiction and ego bring some horrible things into our lives.

What I truly see at this point in recovery, and have for quite a few years, is the PERFECTION of all of it. I no longer question anything that happens. I can see the road and its events so clearly. I may not like the things that happen in my life, but I have learned to quickly move into acceptance of them. Most of the time, I see that it is my perception that makes events “good or bad”, “right or wrong.” And I seldom have all the information required to make a judgment call on anything. Oh yeah!

And then some time unfolds, and I get to see the path of the hand of the Universal Power in all of it and think, “Oh! I get it!” As if my understanding is of any purpose to the Universal Power…. talk about arrogant!

Anyway, I get to wait it out before I jump into making any judgment about life. I just say, “Hmm…that is interesting. Let’s see what comes next.” And I trust it will be revealed. So far, the evidence points to the realm of more being revealed every time.

This is where I get to practice faith and patience and humility. I don’t know about fortitude. I am not the best at that one, except for facing down the bogeymen created by the SPM.

For this woman, faith grows because I have a body of evidence showing me the road behind me and how amazing things turn out if I sit still and “see.” Patience is what I work to achieve as I wait. Humility is the CERTAINTY that the answers required do NOT reside within my brilliant mind, no matter how much I want to “figure it all out.”

So, I wait and see. Wait and see. It has NEVER failed to be miraculous when the answers unfold in the fullness of time in the perfect way the Universal Power has them already written. And if I just get busy helping God’s kids in the meantime, there is always SO much less to clean up and to go crazy about. And the truth is…(wait for it)…my life is none of my f—ing business anyway. Oh yeah!