HOPE MONTH: DAY 8: “We never know when our last day on earth will be. So, love with full sincerity, believe with true faith, and hope with all your might. Better to have lived in truth and discovered life, than to have lived half-heartedly and died long before you ever ceased breathing.” ― Cristina Marrero
For me, this quote says one thing very loudly: “Abandon yourself to God, as you understand God.” And I add…” Abandon yourself to LIFE, even though you do not understand LIFE (Or God).”
Take all the fear and judgment out of love, out of belief, and out of hope. Just jump off the cliff, dive head first into whatever you are doing, get messy, get hurt, get heartbroken, LIVE LIFE!!!
There are no do-overs on this thing. We either live or we miss the damn bus! There are real zombies walking around out there, half-assed alive and half-assed awake. They stumble around muttering: “Same thing, different day.” There is no emotional content to their lives. They are stunted and only half of what they should be. Never engaging in deep living or feeling or anything.
They are afraid all the time. Afraid of being hurt and so, afraid of life. There is no pain in living, just the fear that tells you there might be pain. Then the pain of realizing you have been phoning in relationships, jobs, all of life. Terribly sad, if you ask me.
I get to talk with a lot of people who wish they had embraced more, done more, dared more. Never been afraid of looking silly or stupid or whatever judgment they held inside. It is NEVER about the judgments of others we fear, it is ALWAYS the judgments we give ourselves that kill us, kill our spirit, kill our joy, kill our souls.
OUR ego, the thing that tells us life is catastrophic and terrible and painful and dire; this is the culprit that tells us (in advance, mind you!) that we are going to look weak or strong or sad or happy or that we are doomed to fail or succeed and that it will be HORRIBLE! So, we never get out of our pajamas to show up for life. We are afraid to go out of the door into the big, wide, wonderful world that we could so love and enjoy without THAT story.
What if we all just dared to ignore it and have a wonderful time, no matter what? What if? Well, I say “Just f-n DO IT!!” There is no time like NOW and nothing to lose, except the ego’s power over us.
I have looked silly, disgusting, stupid, crazy, and all of that…and I LOVE it!
I have been judged harshly, always by myself, and still lived a great life. All I want is MORE. So, I take more of it whenever I remember it is being wasted on people who do not feed my spirit, on things that do not make my heart sing, and in ways that will kill me long before my body dies.
Maya Angelou said it for me: Life loves to be taken by the lapel and told: ‘I’m with you kid. Let’s go.’ I have a few quotes and other inspiring things on my desk. They are under a plastic sheet that covers the top of my desk and I read them, over and over. This is one of them. Why? Because I do not want to be one of the walking dead who have no light inside them.
I have done this. I will do it no more. I am going to grab life and shake every drop of it out that I can. It may not appeal to you, but I am happy and ALIVE! That is all I think we ever get to be, and I will be grateful every day for that!
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