HOPE MONTH: DAY5:
“Hold fast to dreams,
For if dreams die
Life is a broken-winged bird,
That cannot fly.” ― Langston Hughes
I have always called myself a skeptical optimist. While I have high hopes for my dreams, I am quite skeptical when it comes to “get rich quick schemes” or things that speak to me of all benefit with no work. This includes spiritual rewards as well. I believe in hard work…it has never frightened me or been something I avoid.
So, coming into this deal, I was on board with doing the work that would heal my life and my broken heart. I began to have hope and that allowed me to dream of a great life, like the ones I saw in the rooms and that others in recovery talked about. I saw it happen for others, and I wanted it for myself. My belief at first was that if I did these things, life would become warm and fuzzy, with no sadness or pain. No one told me that, but I somehow believed it to be the way it worked. Oh, Hell No!
Things happened in those first couple of years that were devastating and painful as hell! And I walked through them with the help of the fellowship and amazing sponsorship. But I also saw the beginnings of great miracles for me, most of all that I did not get high during those painful times.
That was important…the gift of time is that I know what I can walk through without drugs and alcohol, so the thought does not occur to me that they may be any type of solution for me.
And my dreams have all come true and then been removed and come true again, and again, and again. Everything in my life today is the direct result of the dreams I had several years before now.
All of them were impossible, but footwork and opening myself to the possibilities that were beginning to populate my heart and my meditations began the process of them all manifesting for me. And these will be removed and replaced by other things and dreams and processes I have no say over…only dreams and much big HOPE!
I was that broken-winged bird Mr. Hughes talks about in this little poem…and I have been restored and remade into a giant hawk…I can not only fly, but I can soar! And I have, and I do…thank you, thank you, thank you! We must never, ever, ever give up on our dreams!
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