LOVE MONTH: DAY 18: “Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.” ― Jalaluddin Rumi
When I think of loving everyone, I still feel the resistance that my mind creates coming up. Everyone? I am not so sure…what about that person that…. lalalala…and on it goes.
This still happens, even when I am working through these barriers in my mind. And, of course, I am most critical about loving myself. When I really work with these steps and recognize the truth of the journey they have sent me on, I can see that the ultimate goal is not so much that I develop a relationship with some Power that lives in a tree or in the sky or under a rock, but the Presence of that loving Creator that lives within my own heart. That tells me that I am, indeed, being brought back home to the thing that was the creation…me!
When I truly learn to love myself, and break down those barriers that keep me locked in my judgment of ME, I can let go so easily of you and your deeds or misdeeds. I have several people who continue to teach me this practice. What I dislike in you is in me, probably more so than I will ever know.
That means that what I judge and deem unacceptable in you is what I most need to love and embrace inside Kelly…ugh! This continues to teach me, at deeper and deeper levels all the time.
What is hilarious are the mechanisms I have employed in my life to stop this from being brought into my field of awareness. I bribe you to change, I manipulate you to change, I beg you to change; and then I get angry and resentful and hate you to get you to change.
And you don’t, and you won’t and there is no reason why you should, until you are uncomfortable with the things YOU are doing and being. Oh! And so, I get to see that I am that which I dislike in you. And I CAN CHANGE!!!
And I laugh when I get through pounding my head against the wall in frustration and anger and pain. Because you never, ever need to be suitable to me. You be you and the Universe is giving you to me so I can grow and shift and change. My presence here is testimony to my desire and intention to become a better ME and the Universe is bringing all that I need to the task so I may perform it well.
What is even more gracious about this loving Creator is that I can walk away from you and your lessons and teachings and there is a long line of them waiting to move into that vacant spot. And I’ll be damned if there isn’t another whole group in my new place of residence if I move halfway across the country! I have never been so loved!
It has always been like this, so I know this whole thing we call life is a classroom. I am a student of spiritual principles and today is another opportunity for another lesson. That goes on into infinity…and I could not be more in love with this amazing life filled with Grace and Love.
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