COURAGE MONTH: DAY 25: “Only those who will risk going too far can possibly find out how far one can go.” — T. S. Eliot
I do not believe I have ever “overworked” these steps, although I do work through them repeatedly and a great deal more than most of the folks I know around here. I am just really convinced that there are always more issues for me to work through.
Not everyone comes from some of the background I do, and they will not require the consistent practice of this stuff that I have had to utilize to such a degree. I just know that after 30 years of quite rigorous and thorough work around here, I have come to another area of my life where there is some really deep and intense work to be done. REALLY???
I am as shocked as anyone that this part of my life did not respond to the treatment of these steps the way the rest have. There is a focused and intense time of work to be done again. Okay!
Oddly, the minute these issues began to present themselves for my consideration, I began to receive vast resources for their application! Hooray! I am completely good with this, because the Universe and the Power I have come to rely on for guidance in my daily life has never led me astray. So I am pushing through, yet again, in an effort to heal and clean up an area of my life that I truly believed was past this work.
And I am excited and happy to do it! The reason is this: if I am so happy, joyous and free without this arena being fully addressed, IMAGINE what it will feel like when this stuff is behind me! WOW! And the miraculous process we get to experience in doing this! WOW!
I am completely humbled by this event, because I truly did not recognize how deeply this impacted my life and my history. So, I am not done here yet, nor do I wish to be done. I love the process and the day-to-dayness of it.
We get to certain times and places in this process that we believe are those plateaus the book warns about. There is NO “resting on our laurels”, although I know we all think we have done enough and have put enough in the spiritual bank to keep us safe for a long while. This is not now, nor ever will be, the case.
I share this stuff because I watch how many people get really balled up in their addiction after some time. I have watched so many people go back to those old ways because they get so damned grandiose and become some kind of “experts” about this stuff after doing it for 5, 10, 15 or 20 years. There is no point at which we are done or even able to take a break from addiction or its recovery.
Today I am willing to go where this stuff leads me. I will do whatever is recommended for me to do. I seldom have as much work given to me by others as I am already doing on my own. Why? Because this is the best, absolute best, high I have ever had…and I want more…dammit! I am an addict and I INSIST on enjoying life, like it says in the BB.
So if something brings me peace, joy, happiness, and a great sense of personal well-being, why would I not grab more of it every day? I do not understand the resistance we have for getting a great life and keeping it, but I sure do see it in action every day. I laid down that battle! When the book says we “quit fighting everyone and everything”, I have quit fighting the Universe and it’s Will for me, along with those things that are “suggested” in that book.
If I get this much love out of life for doing the small amount of work I do each day and in the process of my personal recovery, why would I stop? Or think I don’t need to do more? That, truly, is the insanity I believe I have been restored to…thank you, thank you, thank you!
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