July 10

PATIENCE MONTH: DAY 10: “And sure enough, even waiting will end…if you can just wait long enough.” ― William Faulkner

Waiting for waiting to be over…I like it! Hahaha! I remember being little and the age was always “too young” to me, so I would be 8 and ½, because that was closer to 9. I wished myself through my childhood, which saddens me. But I can understand it on many levels, because it was not very happy. I am much happier today and time seems to fly away from me, whether I am busy or not. There is little that I am waiting on today. I am just busy living…and in different ways than I ever have before. Had a discussion with someone this morning about declaring my occupation as “Professional Seaglass Collector” or “Beach Bum”, but I don’t want to do either of them every day, so I guess I am just a not having a career these days. I do several things very consistently, no matter what. This is one of them, but I am so patient (today) with the slowed down pace of my life that I cannot imagine jumping back into the “rat race”. And, truth be told, I never enjoyed much about it anyway. The little bit of ego gratification that I get from running around and being and feeling very important has no appeal to me at all. I like my bits of work and my bits of service and my hours on the beach and hiking and looking for seaglass and whatever else I am up to, but the writing I am doing right now is really making me happy and fulfilled. I was bored for about an hour today, and it passed. It always does. I am too creative to sit still for long with no inspiration or motivation. When I do sit like that, it usually means I need a nap, so I have one. I love this little life! And I am perfectly patient with whatever it brings. At least for now, I have no compulsion to bring any excitement or crazy into it. That may change in the next moment, but right now, I am content, completely content…like a fat old housecat sitting in a sunny window. Time and recovery have slowed down the pace of my life and the need for all of that running around. I am happy and content and adequate…the most amazing things I ever thought of! And I am happy to wait for what is coming, because, like everything in the Universe, change is all around and on its way!