June 15

HUMILITY MONTH: DAY 15: “I am not concerned that I am not known; I seek to be worthy to be known.” ― Confucius

Yeah, this is a good one for me. I want to be the best friend I can be to my circle, my tribe. There is a small and lovely group of people with whom I share this journey. I do not seek to be the person with the most friends, but I do want to be a good and true and honest friend. I want to be able to live into the way of life I embrace here and in my heart. When we truly know the small part we play in this world, in this life, it is humbling to recognize that there are only a few whose lives we touch deeply. I want to be integral with the vision I have for my life; and be the person I hold in my heart as my highest and best self. It does not matter if I am ever known by the world around me. The stuff I speak of is all inside my heart. Whatever I may do in the world around me, I am given whatever I need by a Power that is not me or mine. Grace is the gift of recovery and all that it brings into my life from that point onward. Any effort I may exert in the forwarding of my life from that point is all grace as well. As I process the 31^st year of gratitude journals, I see that they have evolved with my progress in this realm. I started with being grateful for specific things I had needed help to process and how they came out. Today I am grateful for the process itself. It keeps me small and in a position to see that I am not the Creator of the outcome, nor am I even aware of how that happens. It is all completely synchronistic that my life coincided with the research in the world about gratitude and how it changes us. I believe it keeps me in a humble state. I want to take credit all the time for being here, especially the amount of time I have been here. So I get to recognize that the only thing keeping me here is that I continuously recognize and thank something, somewhere that does this whole thing. I have the uncanny ability to wreck and destroy all that is good and fine in my life…I believe this is the disease I have…and today, if I do not participate in that destruction, it is only because I have been given that grace. Anything else that comes after that is all grace, too. As I walk around the world today, I hope that I may be a stranger to all I meet, and a kind and gentle one at that! I am looking for miracles and I know I will find about 30 of them, at least. This is awesome and I am blessed!